At home all day with both kids, I suddenly have no idea what to do with myself. I wander aimlessly from room to room. I shuffle the dirty dishes around in the sink. I take an hour to make the bed, and I check my email over and over. When Simone asks me for something I say “Just a minute!” even though I’m not doing anything in the first place. I imagine the various horrific scenarios that could befall my children, and sob until I feel unpleasantly drunk.
I don’t know if it’s postpartum depression or my normal emotional issues, but I’m having a hard time.
In an effort to regain my motivation and happiness, I’ve been trying to take things one small practical step at a time. I’ve been decluttering and organizing, and I downloaded a few episodes of Behind the Blog and The Simple Mom Podcast and have been listening to them while I drive or do housework. It’s a nice way to feel encouraged amidst the constant company of small children. Anyone have favorite podcasts to share?
I’ll be taking a short break from blogging here until Monday (just didn’t want y’all to think something happened to me). I’ll probably still be around in comments, but I won’t be posting. I need a few days of quiet in order to gather my thoughts, spend time with my family, and catch up on some housework.